Babysitting not required
“The work of the lone practitioner is very hard…and truely puts you on the path of powerful magic. Nothing is done for you, you are not babysat through your training, and your path of work is something that comes from your choice alone…” – Josephine McCarthy
In itself, the 30 Days Challenge is not a tough ask. What I find toughest about it, is teasing out the stuff of ‘to keep silent’.
I understand “to Know, to Will, to Dare“. In terms of doing this work, it’s the final one I struggle with – “to Keep Silent”.
One of the criteria of the 30 Days is to record the work.
“Record the ritual work you are doing everyday…”
No issue with the recording of it. That’s the easy bit. I record the stuff of working using a modified process of the bullet journal strategy to link new things back and forwards.
It’s the second part of that sentence that goes to the heart of this post.
…and share it via the #domagick hashtag on Twitter, Facebook, Tumblr, and Youtube.” [emphasis mine]
Anyone can see I don’t post the day I record or write. I delay posts so I’m 100% sure it’s ok to share. Sharing has got me into trouble in the past.
In this space, I answer to other demands. One of which is ‘to keep silent’. There’s a couple of reasons for this.
The main one is the stuff of – to incubate the energy, to respect the formation stage, etc. Then I hear the blatant instruction which to my ears sounds a lot like – ‘shut the fuck up.’
I’ve been rapped over the knuckles in the past about this. Not by my fellow humans. They were only too willing to hear what I had to say and received it well. My less carnate colleagues were clearly not impressed. I understood this after a painful physical experience that underlined their expectations and one I don’t want to repeat. [For the skeptics, this included broken bones with no rational explanation, documented by x-rays].
With anything I learn, I share easily and enjoy doing that. I love hearing other people’s thoughts on a subject and the process of talking it through. Not to mention all the feel-good stuff of connection and feeling understood and heard.
I can see sorcerers and magicians of all ilk have tended to ‘go cryptic’ when sharing their work. I’m also aware of other acquaintances who have shared their magical or sorcery workings and experiences because the spirits or demonic have asked or made conditions that they speak openly about the work or promote their name or activities.
Obviously, the tension doesn’t sit so much with the 30 day challenge itself or the criteria posed. It sits with me.
It sits with my understanding of what ‘keep silent’ means and the practical outcomes. In today’s internet world where information is so readily shared online, this is probably going to be an ongoing tension for me.
As a practitioner, the detail and information I receive from the spirits or demonic is solid. No doubt about that. When the messaging is solid and still the spirits or demonic demand silence, I wrestle with what that means practically.
It’s the stuff of the conflicting demands of humans and spirits – which can be intense. My questions of ‘what do I do with this?’ or ‘how do I judge who needs to hear this?’ or ‘so what now?…’
These times put me on the spot where my allegiances lay.
Where does the line “keep silent” sit? How does that play out in the physical world reality? Ultimately, the question comes down to whose reality do I privilege?
I know my instant response.
How I make that work day to day is complex.
8 March 2017